जन्मदिन

आज मेरा जन्मदिन हैं 

पिछले साल भी आया था 

अगले साल फिर आएगा 

दोस्त- रिश्तेदार बधाई दे रहे  हैं 

वे खुश हैं , या फिर दिखावा कर हैं 

पर मैं दुखी हूँ 

की एक साल और व्यर्थ गया 

बिना अपने जनम की  सार्थकता  सिद्ध किए हुए 

जिस दिन कर लूंगा वो कार्य 

जिसके लिए जन्मा हूँ मनुष्य योनि में 

उस दिन मनाऊंगा अपना जन्मदिन 

मैं खुश होऊंगा  तब 

दोस्त -रिश्तेदारों की मनोदशा तब कैसी रहेगी , 

कह नहीं सकता !

Prison

Exactly one year back we had our last exam of graduation. Everyone was in a festive mood and they were celebrating like, Babur would have celebrated after First Battle of Panipat.

The reason of their celebration was no small. After all they are now eligible to fool the people with the knowledge (or pseudo-knowledge or no-knowledge) they had learned in 4 years, from the institute in which they entered after being fooled by someone.

While some had already got placed in companies which pay its employees for playing games on computer( IT sector), others left behind contacted their bigwig relatives, influential bhaiyyas, and even  the same person who fooled them 4 years back( consultancies). All this, they did, so that at least they could get a stool to sin in front of the computer if not a cushioned revolving chair.

Amidst all this excitement and tension for future, there was a bit of emotion too in the surroundings. As the pain of separation from friends had engulfed the happiness of freedom.

But unaffected of all this, there was I, happy and waiting for another "prison term". From Yarwada(Pune) to Tihar(Delhi).............

*I will complete this post if I successfully complete my stay in "Tihar" ,and achieve for what I accepted this enslavement.

Pune-1

17 July 2009

  I left my hometown to pursue graduation at Pune. For the first time i was going to stay away from my parents and that too for the next 4 years. Pune is known as ‘Oxford of East’ ,’ I.T hub’, ‘education hub’ and many other fanciful names. There was no fear or nervousness but some kind of strange feeling which was asking me not to go to Pune. But the gleam of happiness- that their son is going to Pune- in my parents’ eyes gave me confidence and I convinced my mind that this is the best option for me and boarded the train.

 

20^th July 2009

 1^st day of our college and there was to be an address by our college Principal at 10:30 AM. All the 1^st yr students settled down at the college auditorium eagerly waiting for the Principal. But it was a great disappointment when he landed up 2 hours late and delivering a mechanically structured speech, which I am sure that he delivers the same every year by slight modification.

On reaching the hostel I found everyone was busy in discussing about the classes, labs, placements and yes girls too. Everyone was exulted as they were now their own masters; out of the ‘protective clutches’ of parents.

 

 31^st July 2009

Some seniors had organized a Fresher Party at a Disc named Leather Lounge. Though there were some fresher party held before it also, but it was the 1^st to be attended by me. Almost every boy was trying to look the best. Experiments with facial hair and hairstyle had already started a week before. It was only then  that I came to know that every weird hairstyle has a name too. To me hairstyle was always cutting your long hair and turning back from an animal to a human.

When I entered the place, the scene was horrific and inexplicable. There was complete anomy inside. I don’t know if it is a usual scene in every disc or is it to show their newly attained freedom; but the behaviour of the youth-who were at that time in the transit stage from childhood to maturity- was certainly not a civilized one.

 

Some may call me a conservative and anti- modern but I would disagree with their vieew of modernity. Modernity should change our minds and then our actions, and we should channelize our thinking and actions for making a new society, a new nation-‘ Modern Nation’. Modernity along with our society should make our mind also open. So that we develop the capability to imbibe all good things in our society and filter out the bad things.

But due to the imperfect mind we develop a wrong understanding of modernity and engage in all sorts of deviant behaviour, question the norms and values of society to show our sense of modernity. We develop a happy consciousness by sipping a taqeela for Rs 500 or dancing on some western hip-hop. So without understanding the meaning of modernity we thrive for it.

 

I was deeply saddened at the state of affairs. After 20 min I made a stealthy exit and took a vow never to visit such a ‘hellish’ place again.

 

                                                                                                                                To be cont............